Who am I? Really?

Last night I had a dream I was at an event with my 3 mentors Les Brown, Paul Martinelli and Dr Christiane Northrup. I couldn’t find a seat where I could see so I decided to go and sit in front of the chairs. I suddenly found myself in a farmer’s field sitting in the long grass with everyone behind me watching.

There was a tractor that was pulling a large number of blades to cut the grass. Suddenly the tractor went into reverse and was coming right toward me with the blades lining up with the left side of my body. I didn’t have time to stand up as the blades were coming toward me quickly so I reached out my right hand to a friend and yelled “PULL!” As she began to pull me away from the blades they were still coming toward me and I could feel the left side of my body and face being cut by the sharp blades. The rate she was pulling me away from the blades was just enough to keep me from getting run over all together.

Suddenly the tractor blades stopped and I was able to move away from the razor sharp blades.  I stood up and walked into a bathroom. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn’t recognize who I was. My left cheek was cut and looking infected and the left side of my body was bruised and bleeding.

In a panic I ran out of the bathroom frantically looking for my purse. People were staring and many were telling me I needed to go to the hospital. I was so focused on finding my purse. It was as if my life depended on finding it. The thoughts in my head were “all my identification is in there. I need it so I can go to the hospital. Without it they won’t know who I am.”

I woke up from the panic of my dream and realized there was deep meaning for me. I was curious as I began my yoga practice and began to reflect on what it really meant.  I realized that in my dream I didn’t really know who I was. Without my purse, my identity, my credentials, my professional qualifications, the hats I wear each day, my face…who am I really? I reflected deeper and began to ask “If I am not all of those things, then who am I really?”

When you introduce yourself to someone they usually ask what you do because they want to know who you are. What do you say? How do you define who you are? Can you really sum up all of who you are in the labels society is expecting to hear? In life we become so attached to our identity, our name, our labels (Mother, Teacher, Coach etc) that we move further away from who we truly are. The essence of who we are is not in the labels or uniform we wear. It is not in our profession, qualifications or even our given birth name.

So who am I really? It is difficult to capture the essence of “who I am” in words that society would understand. My coach Paul Martinelli gave me some insight and he helped me understand how to answer this burning question. It is not about the words you use in your answer to the question of “Who am I?” What is more important is the belief you hold and the feeling you connect to when you share with others who you are.

For example, when someone asks me what I do, I may answer that I am a Speaker, Coach, Intuitive Healer or Fertility Yoga Specialist. As I speak those words I will invite the essence and energy of who I am behind those words or labels. I believe the essence of who I am is: I am LIGHT, I am LOVE, I am ONE with SPIRIT.

I used to think that I needed to prove to others I was good enough, I was smart or that I was worthy. The words have become less important. I no longer feel the need to prove to anyone who I am. I no longer need to hold on tightly to those labels because deep down inside I am connected to my sense of Self, my soul, my spirit, my essence. I am at home in my heart, mind, body and spirit and it feels so good to be home.

The next time someone asks you “who are you” or “what do you do” I invite you to take a moment before you answer and connect to the beauty, wisdom and light that is within you. You are so much more than any word or label and when you really connect to that, your life will change in ways you would never begin to imagine.

You are a unique expression of a Universal Energy. You are a powerful creative being capable of manifesting a life that you love. When you remember that, you begin to co-create with a Source that extends beyond the physical boundaries and limitations of this world. As your awareness expands, Miracles happen and who you really are becomes clear!

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Discovering your Full Creative Fertile Potential

It is my purpose and passion in life to inspire and empower others to open their heart and mind to their full fertile potential. When most people hear the word fertility they think of getting pregnant or having a child. I see fertility as a creative fire that is within each us. We are all capable of giving birth to whatever our heart desires. Whether you give birth to a child, career, project, blog, business, book or life adventure, when you learn to channel your creative fertile energy, ANYTHING is possible.

We are powerful creators and in each and every moment we create our reality. The Law of Attraction is a powerful universal law that states “that which is like unto itself is drawn”. Essentially, what we focus our thoughts and energy on is what we will attract more of.  If we focus on what we don’t want, more of what we don’t want will come to us. If we focus our thoughts and energy on what we do want, more of what we want will come to us. It sounds so simple yet most people struggle with it.

I am going to share with you some simple and effective tools to help you shift your energy so that it is in line with your desires. In future posts I will discuss the Law of Vibration which is the primary law that the Law of Attraction falls under. It is essential that you understand both to manifest easily and effortlessly in your life.

The first step is to create awareness about your thoughts and emotions. Begin by answering the following questions. Please be completely honest with yourself! You deserve to hear the truth!

  • Are your thoughts mainly positive or negative?
  • Do you focus on what is going right or what is going wrong?
  • Do you look at the good in others or see their faults?
  • Do you love and accept yourself or judge yourself?
  • Do you look in the mirror and appreciate the positive aspects about your body or do you pick yourself apart with judgment?
  • Are you aware of your emotions throughout the day?
  • Are you emotions mostly positive or negative?
  • Are you willing to look at self limiting behaviors and transform them so that you can create a life that you love?
  • What is one thing that you have dreamed about having or accomplishing?
  • What is one thing that you want to give birth to?

This first key to change is awareness. Your first assignment is to notice, observe, make note, journal about and be curious without judgment. Reflect on your answers and recognize that as you become willing to look at your life you will begin to create more awareness around behaviors you didn’t know existed. It is so important to resist judgment. Instead practice acceptance. Say to your self “it is what it is” or “I am where I am” then focus on your desire, dream or goal.
Stay tuned and I will teach you how ignite your fertile fire. I will share with you tools that will transform your life.

When you step into your full fertile potential you have the ability to create a life that is extraordinary! It begins by taking the first step! Let’s begin today!

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and the Butterfly Emerges

This past summer was a powerful time of transformation for me personally and professionally. I let go of a lot. I found my self withdrawing and seeking quiet simplicity. Everything seemed to slow down. At the same time there was a lot being stirred up deep within me.

As I struggled to find words to describe what I was feeling to friends and family the only words that would come to mind were “I feel like I am in a cocoon.” From the outside it appeared that nothing was happening, but on the inside, there was chaos and confusion. Through it all I was practicing acceptance. “I am where I am and it’s ok.”

It was as if something inside of me was dying to make room for something new. A metamorphosis! In each moment I gave my self permission to be where I needed to be. I let go of judgment. Instead of questioning “why”, I remained curious. I was open to experience whatever it was that was emerging from within. In the past I would force myself to move through it quickly. Knowing all the tools I do, I would have judged myself for not being able to shift from chaos back into peace. Deep down I knew it was all necessary. Everything was perfect.

When you imagine the process a caterpillar goes through to become a butterfly, there would be a perception of chaos and even messiness. I am reminded of Rev Michael Beckwith “Bless the mess. Something is trying to be born. Bless the mess.” That is what I did, over and over and over again. I blessed the mess. Like the caterpillar I entered into the metamorphosis with a deep sense of trust and I completely surrendered to the process.

Since September my creative juices are flowing again. I have emerged! As I spread my new wings I have a renewed sense of strength and purpose. I am ready to touch the lives of many. I am ready to fly!

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